No Point Talking To You

It happened once, then twice, then thrice. Then it seems like this could go on forever. I don’t even know what to say anymore. I do love you. There's no doubt about it. But I'm not sure whether I can take this if its keep on going forever. I'm not asking much. Just a simple respect would do. And yet, the sms I got from you sounds so threatening. The end? As simple as that? You know I wouldn’t choose that.

Is there such a thing as embracing idiocracy and rudeness for the sake of happiness? Step into my shoe, and you'll see the view is full of sigh. Patience is all I have. And if it takes patience all the way until they buried me six feet in the ground, then that is what I'm going to give you. I pledged my loyalty, my suffering, my virtue, my patience, my heartache, my everything, just so that I could be with you.

I dont even know what I did wrong for me to accept this. Maybe not just now. This thing will go on forever. What would you feel if I receive the same treatment again and again and again? Maybe someday, my children would see me being treated this way in front of everyone? Now, as a dad, how would I feel? How would you then? There’s no point talking to you about this because I know the answer will be the same. That I should cope, I should bare with it, I should deal with it. Not anyone else. I'm the one with problems. I'm the one who does not understand. Ok. I accept that.

A treatment for kings is not what I’m worthy for. Nor a treatment for peasants. Just a little common sense and respect would do. Sometimes it is sad to think about it. I might face it until forever. And then there you are, threatening me if I can’t cope with it. No human deserve to be treated this way. Despite the things that had happened, I'll stick by you. I will. Because, I don’t want to regret. But trust me, if this situation continues, you will be the one regretting. Because he will continue to act this way and all I can do is be patient. And patience is all I have left that makes me different from an idiot.

6 comments:

AL said...

patience has its limit. u can be patient for so long, yet at some point you might just lose the love. the will to love. at that point, patience doesn't mean a thing

kinto said...

that is what I'm afraid of. Then there's a point of no return.

AL said...

yeap. hmm... dnt let it b like tht

Omerta Code said...

strictly personal...
tapi bab Sabar nie...kalo nak bincang..memang bleh bukak kitab nie..

kinto said...

bila mu bukak?lama tak lepak..